Time to Socialize.....

This evening I attended a Healers Networking event. Networking things kinda freak me out. Its like being social on purpose, and I am not always a social person. If you have seen me in a social setting, you may very well think I love to socialize and would possibly consider me a fantastic socialite. This would most likely be a social setting where wine and or booze is involved. This was not that type of event. It was held at the Tea Grotto in Salt Lake City with spiritually minded people, not a "knock 'em back" kind of place or crowd. It is a lovely setting with brilliant energy and kind souls. Still, upon first arrival, I fell into this "what am I supposed to be doing?" mode, and felt a bit nervous. What if nobody wanted to talk to me? What if I had nothing interesting to say? What if I quit thinking so much and just act naturally? Hmm...what a concept! It wasn't long before I found myself in conversation with a few familiar faces and a few new ones. What a blessing! The gentleman sitting next to me, sipping the sweetest smelling tea was incredibly interesting. He shared the story of his spiritual journey and I shared mine with him. Like myself, he started at a young age and followed his heart, even when his head asked "What? Are you serious? Ummm...okay." I guess we all do that at times. Question, then slightly freak out, but continue on because we know that we have to do it, even if we don't know what it is or why. Our souls know, on a deeper level, and our hearts and minds follow. That is how I like to live my life, intuitively, but without all the answers. Where would all the fun be in life if we already knew what pleasant surprises were awaiting us around the corner? What would there be to look forward to? I seek knowledge and I seek understanding, but never will the day come that I seek to be all knowing. That would take the fun out of living, and I want to continue to enjoy myself, even at social networking events.