Room to Grow....

So, it has been about two months since I have purchased a domain name in hopes of having a website up and running within a few days. Those hopes were pretty much shattered about six hours after clicking SUBMIT. I thought I knew exactly the kind of website I wanted to create. I wanted it to be etheral yet still professional. I wanted it to be mystical yet not cheesy. I want it to be representative of what I do and who I am, I guess that is the hard part. I have now realized that I only have an idea of how I want to represent that, yet I know exactly how I don't want to represent it! I don't want it to look like those neon signs that say "PSYCHIC READINGS" with part of a letter not lit up, hanging in the window of an old house on a dark, creepy street as the wind blows and thunder and lightning start to crackle in the sky. You know, like the image they show in a movie when the main character dares to test her fate in the hands of some gypsy looking woman sitting behind a crystal ball, with candles burning and cobwebs filling the corners. I want to portray the modern day psychic intuitive. I don't want to feed the false image of a con-artist thriving on the desperation of others while conjuring spirits in the back room. It is funny, as I write this post, it is taking a much different direction than I had anticipated. I wanted to release my frustrations about backgrounds, templates, fonts, tabs and what nots, but I don't think that is what is holding me back with the completion of this site. I now realize that I want to be the modern day psychic intuitive, yet I don't even know what that is or what it would look like if I tried to create that image in the form of a web page. As much as I thought I was ready to put myself out there on the web and stand strong next to who I am and what I do, I am not sure I know exactly what all that entails....but I have an idea! Like a seed beneith the soil, it will soon begin to take its natural form. That is what I want my website to be, a natural, organic extension of who I am....a diffinitive representation would be next to impossible. I don't want to define myself, I want to give myself room to grow.